Statistics show that more and more patients are being prescribed with morphine to help with pain. Pain resulting from all dysfunction including fractured limbs, the effects of physical deterioration as a result of cancer, and various cancer treatments such as chemotherapy.In fact, there has been such an explosion in the use of morphine that there are now initiatives by the more cautious sectors of the medical community to ease the prescription of morphine. One of the main goals of this new approach is to reduce the number of deaths that result from morphine misuse. In fact more than 3 ordinary men and women die everyday from morphine.
Morphine is derived from the poppy plant just like heroin and is either long acting; which has a more gradual and sustained release over 10 to 12 hours, and short acting that needs to be taken more regularly.
As I was fighting cancer and the pain of 8 severely fractured spinal bones; that some insist came as a result of chemotherapy, I was on a regular dose of 200mg of morphine per day for more than 2 years. While this may well have afforded me a good deal of relief from some very severe pain, the addiction that came as a result of this treatment was what finally became the major negative part of my much desired recovery and return to a normal life.
I finally made the choice to stop taking morphine. It was not a decision that was supported by any one of my various doctors dealing with a variety of my problems. I did not do it gradually but worked my way very quickly from 200mg of morphine per day to no more than 50 mg per day and after a few weeks stopped it altogether.
The first week I spun through suicide attempts, flashes of heat like being in an equatorial country, moments of extreme cold where I needed to wear 3 sweaters and a leather jacket. I did not have a single hour of sleep. The second week was very similar, but I did manage about an hours sleep each night. Now in the the third week I am able to achieve two to three hours sleep a night, the hot and cold flashes have decreased, and I have not been tempted to make any more suicide attempts. I am going to make it. I will survive this.
Every day is get better, and every day of this hell just makes me more determined never to touch morphine ever again.
My doctors have been absolutely astonished how I have tackled this very ugly moment in my life. Hands clasped over their mouths in horror calling in their colleagues to listen to my story, all usually ending with hugs. I thank them for their support.
The Backhealer staff have been enormously helpful to me, seeing me through the horror of the past year and continuing to support me through every day of this wild, crazy journey that is now finally heading for a happy conclusion. I will never be able to thank them enough!
Kevin R. – recovering from osteoporosis resulting from chemotherapy of a removed brain tumor